Every day, I have radiation treatments. As these treatments have progressed I have found it more and more difficult to actually taste anything. The other day, I finally reached the point of tastlessness. Nothing I eat or drink has a taste any more.
I suppose that can be a good thing. My youngest son told me that it’s a perfect time to start eating healthy because I can’t taste how bad the “good food” tastes. I suppose he’s right. heh.
The only issue is that the morbidity, or negative side effects of radiation, are getting worse. Not only can I not taste anything – I can barely swallow. Swallowing a pill almost does me in. Every swallow is a lesson in pain. My throat is so irritated that even breathing is a chore as the air moves across my traumatized flesh.
I’ve reached that point where the pain in my throat is as bad, if not worse, than the pain I experienced after the tonsillectomy. Don’t even ask me how painful a sneeze is. And I’m only halfway done with my treatments. ugh.
Because of the pain and disruption to my life from radiation, and the agony of my upcoming chemotherapy treatments, I have decided to take short term disability. I don’t like taking the 40% cut in paywhile on disability, but I really wasn’t helping my team as much as I would have liked. My team needs me to be a consistent and reliable resource – which I can’t be while I am enduring these treatments.
Still – now I have to find ways to keep myself occupied. My general fatigue, along with my pain from radiation, make it difficult to do anything physical. So I imagine I’ll do some writing and reading while on disability – as much as possible.
If you have any good reading suggestions, send em my way!